What else?

what else do I have to do to forget you?
I've done everything...
not enough...
it's not even bearable.

Thanks to the love I receive,
I can keep myself alive,
but even with all the love I receive...
makes my life not even bearable.

Do you know how it feels to stand still in the middle of somewhere or nowhere
and stay there?
and feel how pain gets so real that it paralyzes you...
just to feel how it wraps you... and... meanwhile you feel a tear rolling, so cold, so long...

Finally... after a long pause of life... your breath returns to your lungs and you realize that the tear will never evaporate...
Not bearable at all.